Blinded, I am Blindsided

You know those days where you don't even know why you bothered dragging yourself out of bed in the morning?

Where everyone just needs to leave you alone because they can only make it worse, not better.

Those days when you stand on the edge of the emotional cliff and look out hoping not to fall, but then someone or something runs up and pushes you over.

I'm having one of those days.

BUT on a happier note

Damnit! Now i have drool all down the front of my shirt!

listening: Big City Life-Mattafix

Would You Really Rush Out

"Keep on the sunny side, always on the sunny side,
Keep on the sunny side of life
It will help us ev'ry day, it will brighten all the way
If we'll keep on the sunny side of life"

I don't understand why people just can't be happy. Life would be so much easier for us all if no-one ever fought, no-one had problems in their relationships, no-one got angry and no-one ever felt sad.
I don't understand why people take small things so seriously either. It's not like you're going to die if someone doesn't do something you want them to one time. Or if someone pulls in front of you on the road without their indicator. You don't need to swear, really, it's fine.

Finally I Could Hope For a Better Day

Sometimes I wish that I could talk to my life.
Just pull it aside and say

"No offense but you've kinda been a let down so far.
Can you try and be a bit better maybe?
Ya bastard"

Lego World

"I've been up for days,
Trying to find a way to write my confession down.
Seems every line I writes amiss,
At least this I'll admit.
I never hear that perfect sound.
But then the judge walks and says:
"Boy you cant pretend, You've got to be honest now."

Yesterday I had the strange urge to confes to Ayla all the strange things I do.

And all of the things I love in an I-love-it-but-noone-can-ever-know kind of way.

sometimes I wonder when I see people what odd things they do that no-one else knows about.
Like imagine if someone secretly LOVED lego

like played with it all the time even though they were like 25 and lead a completely normal life-style

They would have to have a secret Lego-Lair to keep all their legos in because no-one could ever know that they played with lego cause that would be too embarassing.
They'd have this whole big lego dungeon going on that no-one knew about and they would call it "operation lego"

To the ones I love

your hearts will be safe with me

My world is a better place with you in it